I have been a little erratic with postings seeing as my thoughts and recovering has me else where. Ever since the end of November it has been a whirlwind of events. Formula 1 was in mid November and I worked more than my usual load. By the time five days was over I was exhausted and took a few days to recoup and get back into the swing of things. By the time I returned to work the following Friday...
A little surprise for both of us. It was just released that I have officially become a Pornsaint after a many years process. Pornsaints.org is one of the many projects I have been working with over the past several years behind the scenes. They are an organization that connects porn stars with artists from around the world to work together creating beautiful masterpieces. They are amazing with extremely...
The smell of a crisp Fall evening and baking apples with cinnamon fills the air this weekend as I attempt to pull myself together after this weeks events. All was going well, I was on track and dare I say even a bit ahead of the game when my work week began but Saturday would bring an abrupt halt to things. Saturday brought a humiliating experience for me. What may have been just part of being human...
There comes those moments in life that time seems to slip by without a notice leaving a trail of events in its aftermath. Waking up from what I call a time warp of existence leaves me wondering what drug the Sandman put in my sleep. It usually entails the loss of connection with friends and the to do list being tossed by the way side but somehow in this auxiliary universe I have seemed to accomplish...
I have slept for two days for what was supposed to be a harmless evening with friends, the movie premier of Machete Kills. Only I would find myself between the sheets of a man I never expected with a woman who embraces sex much the same way I do. Having had the restlessness of my wild child being woken some weeks ago I tried my best to keep her under wraps but my futile attempt ended as I walked out...
After a decade of time has passed the butterflies still return to my stomach each time I look at him. With the anticipation of the evenings events I apply the last touches to my makeup thinking back to the time my bedmate and I first met. It doesn’t seem as though 10 years have passed but the eve of our wedding anniversary is upon us again. He’s the only person I can’t help but giggle...
As I pull the fake lashes from my tired eyes I catch myself staring at my reflection. I have one of those moments of self-awareness. Wondering how I could have gotten so far down this path and yet I can’t imagine being anywhere else. I know it sounds a bit crazy, almost as though its purgatory but isn’t that what purgatory is? An in-between place of wanting exactly what you have yet not...
It’s Friday the 13th and I couldn’t think of a better time to write an entry. I’m one of those strange ones that actually am not afraid of the superstition surrounding this day. Actually I think it brings good luck and am always a bit lighter in mood. This week has been a bit unconventional for my world. In all my rambunctious years of sexual promiscuity I never bothered much with...
It’s already that time of year again which finds us on the brink of Fall. I notice the hours of sunlight getting shorter and my excitement growing with each passing day. The end of August found me in a busy place evidently burning the candle at both ends because it also found me on the couch sick. I’ve been working with my bedmate as his assistant on photo shoots while learning more DSLR...
I reached into the back of the closet fumbling my fingers around in hopes of finding that favorite old hat. Letting my fingers guide my senses I quickly found the familiar feeling of memories, experiences, anticipation, and expectations of what swinging used to be and no longer was. It had been sometime since my bedmate and I have dove back into an experience of meeting new people in the swing community....
