{"id":1825,"date":"2014-01-08T05:00:24","date_gmt":"2014-01-08T11:00:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/?p=1825"},"modified":"2014-01-06T00:02:09","modified_gmt":"2014-01-06T06:02:09","slug":"only-for-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/2014\/01\/08\/only-for-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Only for me"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/OnlyMe01_08_14.jpg\" target=\"_blank\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-1826\" style=\"border: 1px solid black;\" alt=\"OnlyMe01_08_14\" src=\"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/OnlyMe01_08_14.jpg\" width=\"437\" height=\"600\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Remember <a href=\"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/2014\/01\/01\/the-secret-treasure\/\" target=\"_blank\">last week&#8217;s post<\/a> when I told you about my discovery of that porn magazine collection hidden in a cabinet down in the cellar?<\/p>\n<p>Viewed in retrospect, this episode provides a lot of psychology. The descent into darkness, the discovery of forbidden secrets, the defilement of my naive mind. It was a step towards maturity by salvaging a hidden treasure.<\/p>\n<p>The main actor &#8211; besides me &#8211; in this story is pornography. Porn. My story would have been far less interesting if it was just a collection of Popular Mechanics magazines. In that case I would have run upstairs and yelled: Mommy, I&#8217;ve found something interesting, look here! But these were porn mags, and I knew that I should keep them being a secret. But why?<\/p>\n<p>It was the message that porn sent me!<\/p>\n<p>Porn is breaking the fourth wall. Whatever happens, it is happening for me, the spectator. Curiosity, arousal, perplexity, and finally pleasure is porn&#8217;s raison d&#8217;\u00eatre. It all happened at once for me, one single moment in this lonely place. This was happening just for me. And I didn&#8217;t want to share this. It was a secret consent between porn and me.<\/p>\n<p>Many years later, a bit of this feeling is still there. A pornographic image is still extraordinary, a sensation in the plethora of images that is flailing at us every moment. Taken out of its context of a porn magazine (or web site), the pornographic image still develops a subversive power, provoking the spectator. This experience shaped my concern with porn. And it is still developing further.<\/p>\n<p>Entertainment, bad conscience, filth: what&#8217;s your main feeling about pornographic imagery? Leave your story right here!<\/p>\n<p>Stay curious,<\/p>\n<p>Mason Squelch<\/p>\n\n<p><em>Post Image Source: Public Domain, taken from <a href=\"https:\/\/commons.wikimedia.org\/wiki\/File:Nu-anonyme.jpg\" target=\"_blank\">Wikipedi<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Remember last week&#8217;s post when I told you about my discovery of that porn magazine collection hidden in a cabinet down in the cellar? Viewed in retrospect, this episode provides a lot of psychology. The descent into darkness, the discovery of forbidden secrets, the defilement of my naive mind. It was a step towards maturity [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":1826,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1120,37],"tags":[3025,1805,1112,53],"class_list":["post-1825","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-contributors","category-show-all","tag-development","tag-memories","tag-porn","tag-reflection"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1825","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1825"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1825\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1827,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1825\/revisions\/1827"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1826"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1825"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1825"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/rubysdiary.com\/RubysDiaryBLOG\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1825"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}